When the Question is the Answer
And the living shall take to heart
Who is as the wise man? And who knows
the interpretation of a thing? A man's wisdom makes his
face shine, and the intensity of his face is changed
– Ecclesiastes 8:1
Ah, a face.
The human face is one
of the great mysteries. What makes a face a face? Is it the look, the features,
the eyes, all the above, none of the above, or both and perhaps something
A face can tell it all,
or it can hide it all. Is there anything as comforting as a kind face, reassuring
as a warm smile and electrifying as sparkling eyes?
And is there anything
more disturbing than a scowl, unsettling than a dirty stare, dismissive than
a frown and alarming than a frightened face?
Then there is the sheepish
look, the proud look, the bright face and the ashen one. The blush and the
flinch, the pride and the shame, the joy and the pain. The entire spectrum
of life experience, the tangible and not so tangible, is captured in our facial
When we want to see another’s
reaction the first place we look is usually at the face. The reason is perhaps
because as newborns our first sights are the faces of our mothers and fathers.
A face tells a story. A face is a story. Many stories – many volumes.
A face is a study in the mysteries of human nature. It reveals
and it conceals all at once.
Can we ever know the depth
of feelings that lie behind a smile or a grimace?
The Hebrew word for face can perhaps shed some light on
the mystery. “Panim” means both “face”
and “inside” in Hebrew. Strange. A face seems
to express the external surface, as in “the face of
the matter.” Indeed, one can put on a false face that
does not reflect what lies within. You can smile while feeling
Yet, the Hebrew language
– a language of the soul – defines the true nature of a face: Even as we may
use it to conceal, it reflects the inside of a person. Those sensitive to
the “panim” within a person can read the face’s inside story.
Mystically speaking, each
of us was created in the “Divine Image.” What does that mean? Isn’t “Divine
Image” an oxymoron? If it’s Divine than it should not be able to be contained
in a mere image. As G-d tells Moses “no man can see me and live.” Indeed,
the second commandment explicitly prohibits the carving of a “graven image”
of the Divine. By creating man did G-d transgress His own commandment?
The mystic’s answer is this. In creating man G-d manifested
His inner “personality” in an outer image called the human being. While the
essence of G-d remains beyond any manifestation, a dimension of Divine energy
takes on the shape of a “supernal man” (“odom ha’elyon”) in whose “image”
and “figure” each of us is created. As Ezekiel begins his prophetic vision:
“upon the figure of the throne a figure in the shape of a human.”
Prior (conceptually, not
in time) to existence, there was no “inside” and “outside.” Everything was
within the all encompassing and all-pervasive Divine energy. What is today
“outside” was then “inside.” The Great Tzimtzum turned the inside out and
the outside in, creating a duality in which we have “outside” experiences
that can seem divorced of their “inside” souls.
But with the creation
of man, G-d revealed His inside in an outward manifestation. In effect, the
human being is a walking revelation of the Divine.
Free will is of course
our right to choose to reveal the inner Divine or to allow the outer packaging
The Midrash in this week’s
Torah portion discusses the face in some of its extreme contortions.
Moses challenges G-d,
the Midrash relates, with the biggest question of all. “How can one be purified
from the impurity of death?”
G-d did not respond.
“At that moment, Moses’
face turned yellow (pale).”
Only later, continues the Midrash, when they reached the section of the
red heifer [this week’s Torah portion], did G-d say
to Moses: “When I communicated to you the laws of
ritual impurity, you asked Me, how can this person (touched
by death) become pure, I did not respond. Now I will give
you the answer.” And G-d proceeded with the mitzvah
of purification from the impurity of death by mixing the
ashes of a red heifer with fresh water and sprinkling it
upon the contaminated human being.
What kind of answer is this? And if it’s an adequate
answer why was G-d initially silent and not say it in the
This passage in Midrash is actually an interpretation
of the verse in Ecclesiastes, “Who is as the wise man? And who knows the interpretation
of a thing? A man's wisdom makes his face shine, and the intensity of his
face is changed.”
In this verse King Solomon is describing the mystery of
life and death, and the way humans deal with it. We can all feel wise when
things are “going well.” The world in which we live is so structured that
the surface obscures all that going on within. To the extent, that on the
surface level we may feel that we are in control and know the “interpretation
of a thing” or two.
Until… until something shakes our comfort zone, waking
us up from our reverie. Then, suddenly, we realize that the deepest truth
of all is the query: “Who [really] is as the wise man? And who knows the interpretation
of a thing?”
This does not negate the wisdom that we may have. Indeed,
“A man’s wisdom makes his face shine.” Yet, experiencing the pain of death
– the disconnection of a soul departing its body, and leaving its family and
friends to travel to another domain – teaches an even deeper wisdom, as “the
intensity of his face is changed.”
Moses, the quintessential man of G-d, the collective soul
that contains within itself the experience of all souls, personally undergoes
Moses was wise. And his face showed it. He had to cover
his face because the people could not look at its radiance.
But then Moses became even wiser. He learned that the greatest
wisdom of all is silence. That quiet place was revealed
to him only when he asked the question – the greatest
question of all: What do we do with death?
We live our entire lives believing that our actions have
meaning; that the prices we pay to live virtuously, and the sacrifices of
our parents and grandparents, are all worth it because every good deed, every
effort, lives on forever.
Death, however, challenges the entire premise of our significance.
Death seems to declare that no one is indispensable. The very word death means
“the end,” finality. You think the party will never end – boom! It ends whether
you like it or not.
Moses was a great man, the greatest of them all. His greatness
shined most – as all greatness does – not in “good times,” but in the bad.
In the abysmal throes of Egypt, after the tragedy of the Golden Calf, in the
darkest moments, Moses did not shrink away helpless. He looked the blackness
in its face, and did whatever it took.
Now, Moses confronts the issue if death. He is not afraid
to face it, but he also is wise enough to know that you
need different tools (or no tools) to address the “dark
side” of life. Moses does not confront death intellectually,
academically; he takes it personally to heart and cries
out: “What can possibly purify the impurity of death?!”
How can one ever heal from it, how can it not shake the
very core of our beliefs?
The first step in dealing with it is bravely asking the
question and feeling the pain, as it showed in Moses’ face changing color.
[In another place the Midrash just states “Moses’ face changed”].
The face. “The intensity of his face is changed.” The
same face that glowed after Moses descended with the Tablets, now changed
as he looked death in the eye.
Then G-d taught Moses the true answer: Silence. Nothing
but silence can contain the intensity of the schism between life and death.
It takes us back to the silence of the Tzimtzum itself. Before the tzimtzum,
reality was “buzzing” with infinite light (ein sof) and all its delights.
Suddenly, a silence descended: G-d withdrew the conscious awareness of Divine
energy, to allow for our independence to emerge.
Imagine, as the analogy goes, the most brilliant master
unceasingly expounding on the infinite reservoirs of all
wisdom and knowledge, then suddenly he falls silent.
The stillness must be so deafening – louder than any sound
we will ever hear. The energy expended in withholding the flow is infinitely
more powerful than the energy invested in releasing the flow.
This silence replays itself in every death. And replayed
itself before Moses in G-d not responding to his question about purity from
death. The non-response was the greatest response of all.
Then, a while later, G-d continues and says, now that
we have been silent together, after we stood in awe of the mystery, now we
can talk. And they talk.
G-d shares with Moses the mystery of cycles. All cycles.
The cycles of life and death; the cycles of life itself and even the cycles
of death and beyond. Everything in existence – even silence and tzimtzum –
is part of a cycle.
The secret of the cycle is that it is one continuum of
energy. Every form of energy requires movement. Energy cannot be generated
in a vacuum; it needs two opposite poles that cause tension and then resolution.
Take the life force energy within our bodies. Our heartbeat
is the result of two movements: Contraction and expansion. As is our breath:
Inhaling and exhaling. Tension and then resolution, only to lead to a new
cycle, and yet another.
This mystery is captured in the balance of mixing water
and ashes (fire) in the mitzvah of the red heifer. Fire is the tension and
water the resolution. Together they are the source of life itself.
You are alive when you have a healthy balance of angst
and resolve. Yearning, reaching for something greater. Then integrating it.
Too much tension (as in anxiety or worse) or too much resolution (as in animal
bliss or worse!) results in hyperactivity or stagnation.
Yet, after all is said and done, the silence still remains.
And it continues to permeate the conversation, as Moses makes abundantly clear
in the continuing dialogue. After hearing G-d’s words about the red heifer
and the water and ashes, Moses remains stunned: “Is this the way to achieve
purity?” And G-d replies: “This is the supra-rational law; it is my decree
and there is no existing creature who can comprehend this decree.”
All the discussions help us forge ahead, but they don’t
turn us into G-d. They don’t, nor can they, intellectually enter into the
“heart of darkness,” into the essential core of the tzimtzum. These places
remain a Divine decree, impenetrable with conventional (or any) tools.
Quiet. Awe. Stillness. These are gifts.
The Midrash doesn’t tell us directly whether Moses’ face
changed back to its original color, with its glowing radiance. But we can
assume that it did (as one commentary states). But I would like to believe
that even when it did, it never was the same.
Because yes, the greatest answer of all is the question