Yom Kippur 1945
The account below was related to me personally
by Reb Leibel Zisman, a living witness to these unforgettable
events. Leibel was 14 years old at the time, and his birthday
is on Yom Kippur.
Yom Kippur Eve 1945/5706, Foehrenwald DP Camp, Germany.
The sun was about to set
on Yom Kippur eve, the holiest day of the year.
But for us… For us it felt like Tisha B’av. Just a few
months earlier we were living, if you can call that living,
it was actually dying, in the unspeakable horror that was
called the Gunskirchen Lager (concentration camp) in Northern
Austria. It is impossible to describe the hundreds of dead
bodies strewn about everywhere you turned throughout the
camp. The hunger, the stench, the death, the insanity was
everywhere. The Nazis, may their names and memories be forever
erased, dehumanized us, turning us into ravenous sub-humans,
desperate for a drop of water. Days would go by between
a morsel of bread and paltry sip.
I was 14 years old when
we were finally liberated on May 5, 1945. Orphaned, widowed, homeless – completely
alone with no place to go – we wandered in what now appears a complete fog.
But it all comes back to me as I tell the story.
We – some 5000 of us survivors
– ended up in the Foehrenwald DP (displaced persons) Camp in Germany (southwest
of Munich), where we spent Yom Kippur, together with the Klausenburger Rebbe,
Rabbi Yekutiel Yehudah Halberstam, who tragically lost his wife and 11 children
to the German beasts.
As night was falling that
Yom Kippur eve all 5000 of us gathered in a makeshift shul for Kol Nidrei.
As is the custom in many communities, the Klausenburger Rebbe stood up on
the bimah (the platform in the center of the congregation) to share
a few pre-Kol Nidrei words to awaken our hearts and prepare us for the awesome
day ahead of us.
I will never forget what
the Klausenberger Rebbe said that Yom Kippur eve 61 years ago. The moment
With tears in his eyes
he began by thanking G-d for saving our lives from the Nazi hell.
He then pointed to his
kittel – the white linen robe that we traditionally wear on Yom Kippur
– and began to speak (in Yiddish), slowly, deliberately, tearfully:
“One of the reasons we
wear this kittel is because it is the traditional burial garment, in
which we wrap a body before laying it to rest in the ground, as we do when
we bury our parents and those that came before us. Wearing a kittel
on Yom Kippur thus reminds us of our final day of judgment when we will be
laid to rest. It therefore humbles and breaks our hearts, stirring us to do
complete Teshuvah (return). The white, linen kittel is a symbol
of purity that we achieve through our introspection and efforts to repair
all our wrongs.
“Since the kittel
reminds us of the burial shroud of those that passed on before us,” continued
the Klausenberger, “why are we wearing a kittel today? Our parents
and loved ones were just slaughtered without tachrichim (burial
shrouds). They were buried, with or without clothes, in mass graves, or
in no graves at all…”
Suddenly, the Klausenberger
Rebbe began tearing off his own kittel, literally. “No kittel!” he
cried out in an anguished voice. “Let us be like our parents. Let us remove
our kittels, so that can recognize us. They won’t recognize us in kittels,
because they are not wrapped in kittels…”
I have no words to capture
the emotions pouring out of the grand Rebbe that first Yom Kippur after the
Everyone gathered in the
shul began to weep uncontrollably – men, women, old, young, every single person
in the large hall. All our anguish, all our unbearable losses, all the humiliation
and senseless dehumanization came spilling out of our guts.
It was an unforgettable
sight: 5000 people sobbing. Nit geveint. M’hot ge’chlipet. Not
sobbing; bawling. The floor was wet with the tears gushing from all our eyes.
What a stirring hisorerus
(awakening) we experienced that Yom Kippur eve, what a remarkable hisorerus
– it was unbelievable.
The Rebbe’s words rang
in our ears, in every fiber of our broken beings – every one of us had just
lost our closest relatives: fathers, mothers, brothers, sisters, uncles and
aunts. We were indelibly scarred. The words rang out: “What do we need tachrichim
for?! Your father, mother, brother, sister, aunt, uncle, zeide, bobbe – they
are all lying mangled in mass graves. Or in no graves at all – burned to ashes…
What tachrichim? What clothes? What kittel?!...
Picture the scene: The
holiest night of the year. The awesome moment just before Kol Nidrei. All
the Torah scrolls lifted out of the ark. 5000 broken Jews, left shattered,
orphaned without families. The saintly Klausenberger Rav standing on the bimah,
ripping off his kittel – “We don’t need it…”
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What more can be said?
Yet, as another Rebbe once expressed himself: “It difficult to speak, but
it’s more difficult to remain silent.”
Today, 61 years later,
we are blessed to enter Yom Kippur without the misery that haunted Yom Kippur
in 1945, immediately after the liberation from the camps. Yom Kippur today
comes amidst many blessings and comforts. We live in freedom and have achieved
many levels of success. It’s almost impossible to imagine that in just six
decades the Jewish people have gone through such a renaissance: With the growth
advancements in Jewish education and overall prosperity Jewish life today
is nothing less than a modern miracle.
In stark contrast to 1945,
we now enjoy a sumptuous meal before the holiday together with our intact
families. We dress up, don our well-pressed kittels and enter our synagogues
in calm and peace.
But we must never forget, never lose sight and get caught
in the trap so succinctly captured in this week’s
Torah portion: “Vayishmen Yeshurun Va’Yivat.
Shomanto, oviso, koshiso” – He became fat and
kicked. You became fat, thick and gross” from comfort
and prosperity. Such is the nature of an easy and content
life: It creates complacency.
On Yom Kippur we dedicate
an entire section of prayer to “aleh ezkiro” – these I will remember.
We recount the troubles that have befallen us since the destruction of the
Temple, ending with the heart-rending
story of the “ten martyrs” who were barbarically put to death by the cruel
Ten great men – the greatest
of their time – are never forgotten, and live on in immortality despite (or
perhaps because of) their premature, brutal deaths.
A little over 60 years
ago not ten but… six million martyrs were massacred for no other reason than
their being Jewish, with no tachrichim, no kittels, no dignity
– with nothing at all.
But we remember. And we
don’t only remember. We recreate. We channel all our anger, pain and loss
into a revolution, doubly and triply reinforced by the fact that we now have
the responsibility to fill the void left by those six million and all that
they and their offspring would have accomplished.
We don’t just remember;
we know that regardless of the mystery of life and death, despite the historical
extremes from destruction to rebirth – we are all part of one mysterious cycle.
We may never know why
six million martyrs suffered such cruel deaths and millions of others endured
unspeakable degradation. We will never know why their bodies were never shrouded
But we always know that
we – all generations – are bound in one inextricable chain, and we do recognize
each other despite our different, even diametric opposite, garments, cultures,
backgrounds and levels of commitment. Because beneath it all lies a unifying
force that connects us all.
And on Yom Kippur – today,
in 1945, two thousand years ago, and 3278 years ago – we celebrate this inherent
This week we read in the
Torah how Moses, 3278 years ago, just a few days before he ascended on high
not to return, designated heaven and earth as eternal witnesses to his final
words for the Jewish people.
Look up at the sky. Look
down at the earth. The same clear sky and pure earth that Moses looked at
3278 years ago. The same smoke filled sky and blood drenched earth the Jews
suffered in Gunskirchen 62 years ago. The same sky and earth we gaze upon
The same heaven and earth
heard and absorbed Moses’ words over three millennia ago. And they have stood
ever since bearing silent witness to G-d’s promises.
Yom Kippur is upon us.
And heaven and earth are our witness that we are linked today to all generations
past – both a gift and a responsibility.
As the sun sets this coming Sunday evening and we put on
our kittels, we have much to cry and sing about –
for ourselves, our families, generations past, future generations,
from the beginning of time into eternity itself.
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Question for the week: What sacred
or memorable Yom Kippur memories do you have?
a question for future weeks.