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My Encounter With The Rebbe:
The Baseball Game
Editor’s note: One of the most phenomenal aspects of the
Rebbe’s personality was his effectiveness as a communicator
and motivator. The untold thousands who were privileged to
meet and correspond with him personally, all felt the Rebbe’s
ability to relate to them in a most personal and individual
manner. No matter that he or she was but one of the many hundreds
to meet with the Rebbe for a brief minute or two that night;
no matter that his or her letter was all but lost in the three
mail sacks that daily arrived at the Rebbe’s office—the Rebbe
would immediately focus upon their individual situation, address
their needs and abilities, and proceed to enlist them in his
relentless efforts on behalf of the Jewish people and of all
humanity.
The following account (translated from the Hebrew weekly
Kfar Chabad) is told by a young man who met the Rebbe on three
occasions. Below is the first of these encounters.
The first time I met the Rebbe we discussed baseball. It was a month before
my bar-mitzvah, and my grandfather, a devout Jew and second-generation American,
wanted me to meet the Rebbe and receive his blessing in preparation for my attainment
of Jewish adulthood. My parents had all but abandoned religious practice of
their faith, so it was Grand-father who assumed the primary role in my Jewish
education, giving me lessons in the rudiments of Yiddishkeit several times a
week and taking me to the synagogue on Shabbat.
My first surprise was the Rebbe’s youthful appearance. I had expected a chassidic
sage with a long white beard, but the Rebbe, who was in his early fifties at
the time, had the appearance and manner of a man 15 years younger. My second
surprise was the Rebbe’s first question to me: “Which is your favorite sport?”
“Baseball,” I replied.
“How do you most enjoy the game,” asked the Rebbe, “when one team plays or when
two teams play against each other?”
“Rabbi,” I said, “you can’t play baseball with only one team.”
“Why?” asked the Rebbe
“Rabbi,” I patiently explained, “the entire point of the game is which side
is going to score more runs than the other. You must have two teams.” I was
relieved to see that the Rebbe understood.
“So who usually wins?” the Rebbe pressed on.
“Whoever plays best,” I said, proud of my inspired reply.
I don’t know what Grandfather thought of our conversation, but the Rebbe continued
to direct all his attention to me. “Tell me,” he now asked me, “do you and your
friends play much baseball?”
“Sure. We play a lot.”
“Do you also go to watch the baseball games at the stadium?”
“Sure.”
“But why do you have to go watch others play, if you know how to play the game
yourselves?”
Again I felt the frustration of needing to explain the obvious. “Rabbi,” I said,
politely suppressing my smile, “when we play, it’s just a bunch of kids playing.
With the Major League teams, its the real thing.”
“Joseph,” said the Rebbe, a warm smile illuminating his face, “your heart is
a baseball field. There are two teams competing there: the ‘good inclination,’
the yetzer tov, and the ‘evil inclination,’ the yetzer horah.
But up until now, it was a kids’ game. Now, with your bar-mitzvah, the real
game begins. G-d is giving you a special gift—a major league yetzer tov,
with the skills and talents to beat the yetzer horah and guide you through
a righteous and constructive life. Remember, Joseph, just like in baseball:
whoever plays best, wins...”
***
Grandfather repeated the Rebbe’s baseball analogy at my bar-mitzvah and I fondly
remembered my visit with the young personable rabbi. Beyond that, I do not recall
the Rebbe’s words making much of an impression on my 13-year-old self. But as
two events in my young adult years were to testify, the Rebbe’s words affected
me far more deeply than I was aware at the time.
The first event took place three years later, the 16th year of my life and
my second in High School. My class had won a school-wide competition and was
awarded a weekend trip to a luxurious resort in New Orleans. I came home that
evening bursting with excitement and joy; my parents, however, received the
news in uncomfortable silence. Finally, mother said to me: “Joe, there’s a problem.
Yom Kippur is that weekend. As you know, we’ve always observed Yom Kippur. We
fast and we attend services at the synagogue. We have never desecrated the holiness
of the day, and we expect the same of you.”
“Mom,” I protested, “you don’t understand. This is an opportunity of a lifetime!
All year we’ve been dreaming of winning this prize. I’ll never forgive myself
if I miss it!”
The arguments at home continued all week. My parents said they understood how
important the trip is for me; nevertheless, they maintained, there are certain
hallowed values which one must set above all else. I countered that I’ve always
kept Yom Kippur and I shall continue to do so all my life, but nothing will
happen if I made this one exception for a once-in-a-lifetime experience.
In the end, my parents, who prided themselves with their liberal approach to
child-rearing, said to me: “Joe, you know that we never forced our convictions
on you. We’ve told you how we feel about the matter. Now, the decision is yours.”
The “decision” was easily made: New Orleans, here I come!
The night before the trip I was watching a baseball game at a friend’s home.
The game ended with a breathtaking comeback in the last inning by the team that
had been trailing by several runs throughout the game. Over the cheering of
the crowd we heard the broadcaster say: “Well, after all is said and done, there
are no two ways about it in baseball: the team that plays best, wins!” Suddenly,
I remembered my conversation with the Rebbe. I stayed home that Yom Kippur.
***
The second event took place five year later, during my college years. The year
was 1962 and everyone on campus was searching for “meaning to life.” Two friends,
who had fallen in with a group of Mormon missionaries operating on campus, invited
me to a lecture and discussion. Soon I was attending regularly. My meager Jewish
education was no match for their sophisticated presentation; soon I began to
see my own faith as shallow, bourgeois and devoid of spiritual content, and
theirs as inspiring and rejuvenating. The more involved I became, the more I
felt that, for the first time, my life had meaning and direction.
My only problem was how to break the news to my parents. I knew that, liberal
views notwithstanding, they would be extremely upset by my conversion. I decided
to say nothing as of yet and wait for an opportune time to tell them of my new
life. I even harbored hopes of eventually bringing them to see the light themselves.
Shortly before I was to be baptized as a Christian and Mormon, I played shortstop
in our weekly baseball game on campus. We played atrociously and lost badly.
As we left the field, I found myself walking alongside the captain of the winning
team, slapping him on the back, and saying: “Well, there are no two ways about
it in baseball: the team who plays best, wins!”
I was barely able to finish the sentence. I’m sure my friend wondered why I
suddenly turned white. As did my Mormon teachers as to why I suddenly severed
all contact with them.
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