Yom Kippur 1945
The account below was related to me personally in 2006 by Reb Leibel Zisman, a living witness to these unforgettable events. Leibel was 14 years old at the time, and his birthday is on Yom Kippur.
Yom Kippur Eve 1945/5706, Foehrenwald DP Camp, Germany.
The sun was about to set on Yom Kippur eve, the holiest day of the year.
But for us… For us it felt like Tisha B’av. Just a few months earlier we were living, if you can call that living, it was actually dying, in the unspeakable horror that was called the Gunskirchen Lager (concentration camp) in Northern Austria. It is impossible to describe the hundreds of dead bodies strewn about everywhere you turned throughout the camp. The hunger, the stench, the death, the insanity was everywhere. The Nazis, may their names and memories be forever erased, dehumanized us, turning us into ravenous sub-humans, desperate for a drop of water. Days would go by between a morsel of bread and paltry sip.
I was 14 years old when we were finally liberated on May 5, 1945. Orphaned, widowed, homeless – completely alone with no place to go – we wandered in what now appears a complete fog. But it all comes back to me as I tell the story.
We – some 5000 of us survivors – ended up in the Foehrenwald DP (displaced persons) Camp in Germany (southwest of Munich), where we spent Yom Kippur, together with the Klausenburger Rebbe, Rabbi Yekutiel Yehudah Halberstam, who tragically lost his wife and 11 children to the German beasts.
As night was falling that Yom Kippur eve all 5000 of us gathered in a makeshift shul for Kol Nidrei. As is the custom in many communities, the Klausenburger Rebbe stood up on the bimah (the platform in the center of the congregation) to share a few pre-Kol Nidrei words to awaken our hearts and prepare us for the awesome day ahead of us.
I will never forget what the Klausenberger Rebbe said that Yom Kippur eve 61 years ago. The moment was overwhelming.
With tears in his eyes he began by thanking G-d for saving our lives from the Nazi hell.
He then pointed to his kittel – the white linen robe that we traditionally wear on Yom Kippur – and began to speak (in Yiddish), slowly, deliberately, tearfully:
“One of the reasons we wear this kittel is because it is the traditional burial garment, in which we wrap a body before laying it to rest in the ground, as we do when we bury our parents and those that came before us. Wearing a kittel on Yom Kippur thus reminds us of our final day of judgment when we will be laid to rest. It therefore humbles and breaks our hearts, stirring us to do complete Teshuvah (return). The white, linen kittel is a symbol of purity that we achieve through our introspection and efforts to repair all our wrongs.
“Since the kittel reminds us of the burial shroud of those that passed on before us,” continued the Klausenberger, “why are we wearing a kittel today? Our parents and loved ones were just slaughtered without tachrichim (burial shrouds). They were buried, with or without clothes, in mass graves, or in no graves at all…”
Suddenly, the Klausenberger Rebbe began tearing off his own kittel, literally. “No kittel!” he cried out in an anguished voice. “Let us be like our parents. Let us remove our kittels, so that they can recognize us. They won’t recognize us in kittels, because they are not wrapped in kittels…”
I have no words to capture the emotions pouring out of the grand Rebbe that first Yom Kippur after the horror.
Everyone gathered in the shul began to weep uncontrollably – men, women, old, young, every single person in the large hall. All our anguish, all our unbearable losses, all the humiliation and senseless dehumanization came spilling out of our guts.
It was an unforgettable sight: 5000 people sobbing. Nit geveint. M’hot ge’chlipet. Not sobbing; bawling. The floor was wet with the tears gushing from all our eyes.
What a stirring hisorerus (awakening) we experienced that Yom Kippur eve, what a remarkable hisorerus – it was unbelievable.
The Rebbe’s words rang in our ears, in every fiber of our broken beings – every one of us had just lost our closest relatives: fathers, mothers, brothers, sisters, uncles and aunts. We were indelibly scarred. The words rang out: “What do we need tachrichim for?! Your father, mother, brother, sister, aunt, uncle, zeide, bobbe – they are all lying mangled in mass graves. Or in no graves at all – burned to ashes… What tachrichim? What clothes? What kittel?!…”
Picture the scene: The holiest night of the year. The awesome moment just before Kol Nidrei. All the Torah scrolls lifted out of the ark. 5000 broken Jews, left shattered, orphaned without families. The saintly Klausenberger Rav standing on the bimah, ripping off his kittel – “We don’t need it…”
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What more can be said? Yet, as another Rebbe once expressed himself:
“It is difficult to speak, but it is more difficult to remain silent.”
Today, over 70 years later, we are blessed to enter Yom Kippur without the misery that haunted Yom Kippur in 1945, immediately after the liberation from the camps. Yom Kippur today comes amidst many blessings and comforts. We live in freedom and have achieved many levels of success. It’s almost impossible to imagine that in just six decades the Jewish people have gone through such a renaissance: With the growth of Israel, advancements in Jewish education and overall prosperity Jewish life today is nothing less than a modern miracle.
In stark contrast to 1945, we now enjoy a sumptuous meal before the holiday together with our intact families. We dress up, don our well-pressed kittels and enter our synagogues in calm and peace.
But we must never forget, never lose sight and get caught in the trap so succinctly captured in this week’s Torah portion: Vayishmen Yeshurun Va’Yivat. Shomanto, oviso, koshiso – “He became fat and kicked. You became fat, thick and gross” from comfort and prosperity. Such is the nature of an easy and content life: It creates complacency.
On Yom Kippur we dedicate an entire section of prayer to “aleh ezkiro” – these I will remember. We recount the troubles that have befallen us since the destruction of the Temple, ending with the heart-rending story of the “ten martyrs” who were barbarically put to death by the cruel Roman Emperor.
Ten great men – the greatest of their time – are never forgotten, and live on in immortality despite (or perhaps because of) their premature, brutal deaths.
A little over 70 years ago not ten but… six million martyrs were massacred for no other reason than their being Jewish, with no tachrichim, no kittels, no dignity – with nothing at all.
But we remember. And we don’t only remember. We recreate. We channel all our anger, pain and loss into a revolution, doubly and triply reinforced by the fact that we now have the responsibility to fill the void left by those six million and all that they and their offspring would have accomplished.
We don’t just remember; we know that regardless of the mystery of life and death, despite the historical extremes from destruction to rebirth – we are all part of one mysterious cycle.
We may never know why six million martyrs suffered such cruel deaths and millions of others endured unspeakable degradation. We will never know why their bodies were never shrouded in white.
But we always know that we – all generations – are bound in one inextricable chain, and we do recognize each other despite our different, even diametric opposite, garments, cultures, backgrounds and levels of commitment. Because beneath it all lies a unifying force that connects us all.
And on Yom Kippur – today, in 1945, two thousand years ago, and almost 3300 years ago – we celebrate this inherent unity.
This week we read in the Torah how Moses, close to 3300 years ago, just a few days before he ascended on high not to return, designated heaven and earth as eternal witnesses to his final words for the Jewish people.
Look up at the sky. Look down at the earth. The same clear sky and pure earth that Moses looked at almost 3300 years ago. The same smoke filled sky and blood drenched earth the Jews suffered in Gunskirchen over 70 years ago. The same sky and earth we gaze upon today.
The same heaven and earth heard and absorbed Moses’ words over three millennia ago. And they have stood ever since bearing silent witness to G-d’s promises.
Yom Kippur is upon us. And heaven and earth are our witness that we are linked today to all generations past – both a gift and a responsibility.
As the sun sets this coming Tuesday evening and we put on our kittels, we have much to cry and sing about – for ourselves, our families, generations past, future generations, from the beginning of time into eternity itself.
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Question for the week: What sacred or memorable Yom Kippur memories do you have?
It was Yom Kippur evening circa 1980, sometime after Kol Nidre. I was sitting in Shul upstairs in the Ladies section and listening to the Rabbi giving the sermon. I do not remember what he said, but I do remember that it touched my heart. I looked down and caught my husbands eye, and saw that he also was moved. In that moment there was an opening of my heart to include everyone in the packed shul. It was an inclusive feeling, with no boundaries. All petty feelings were absent, and what remained was love and compassion and great warmth. This lasted all through Yom Kippur and I am sure that this was the closest I have come to an egoless state. I wanted to hold onto this glorious state, but realised that that was not possible or even desirable. However, the memory of it has never left me. I know that the creation has to unfold with all its ups and downs, but there is the knowledge that it is possible to live in this world and fully partake in whatever the creation has in store, while yet remaining an observer, and letting it all unfold without getting caught up in it.
This writing, rebbe, brought tears to my eyes. I am 38 and I have learned compassion for others is the real sign of power. Hate always destroys iteslf but love lives on forever. On Yom Kippur, we must learn to love not hate.
This story could melt a rock…
Yasher Koach Otzum
My most memorable moments of Yom Kippur are as a youngster going over to the drug store located next to the Shul during Yizkor service and catching a peek at the World Series game…
i remember when i was little my parents lived in the west bronx and my grandparents lived in the east bronx, my parents took me and my brother to van cortland to lake (1952?) to watch my grandfather THROW his sins into the water. that impression has stayed with me since,now here in gloucester mass. we go to the cove, the inlets or the vast ocean to do the same….shalom
Im almost done reading the book by Leibel Zisman. I found a very moving & inspirerational reading. I was hoping to communicate directly with Mr. Zisman as I greatly admire him & glad he was able to survive against many odds. He has really made a positive position on life. hope he reads this & know that he has a positive effect on people. Thank you Mr. Zisman.
Shalom , I was born April 18 , 1945 in Budapest
Hungary . My parents , my brother and my
Grandmother were in DP camp after the war.
We sailed to Canada on a merchant marine ship.
May we all feel and share the commitment
That all Lubavitchers have for The Rebbe which
is without limit
Shanah Tova 5779
Yosef Mordechai Gati Queens N.Y