When the Question is the Answer
And the living shall take to heart
Who is as the wise man? And who knows the interpretation of a thing? A man’s wisdom makes his face shine, and the intensity of his face is changed –
Ah, a face.
The human face is one of the great mysteries. What makes a face a face? Is it the look, the features, the eyes, all the above, none of the above, or both and perhaps something more.
A face can tell it all, or it can hide it all. Is there anything as comforting as a kind face, reassuring as a warm smile and electrifying as sparkling eyes?
And is there anything more disturbing than a scowl, unsettling than a dirty stare, dismissive than a frown and alarming than a frightened face?
Then there is the sheepish look, the proud look, the bright face and the ashen one. The blush and the flinch, the pride and the shame, the joy and the pain. The entire spectrum of life experience, the tangible and not so tangible, is captured in our facial expressions.
When we want to see another’s reaction the first place we look is usually at the face. The reason is perhaps because as newborns our first sights are the faces of our mothers and fathers.
A face tells a story. A face is a story. Many stories – many volumes. A face is a study in the mysteries of human nature. It reveals and it conceals all at once.
Can we ever know the depth of feelings that lie behind a smile or a grimace?
The Hebrew word for face can perhaps shed some light on the mystery. “Panim” means both “face” and “inside” in Hebrew. Strange. A face seems to express the external surface, as in “the face of the matter.” Indeed, one can put on a false face that does not reflect what lies within. You can smile while feeling miserable inside.
Yet, the Hebrew language – a language of the soul – defines the true nature of a face: Even as we may use it to conceal, it reflects the inside of a person. Those sensitive to the “panim” within a person can read the face’s inside story.
Mystically speaking, each of us was created in the “Divine Image.” What does that mean? Isn’t “Divine Image” an oxymoron? If it’s Divine than it should not be able to be contained in a mere image. As G-d tells Moses “no man can see me and live.” Indeed, the second commandment explicitly prohibits the carving of a “graven image” of the Divine. By creating man did G-d transgress His own commandment?
The mystic’s answer is this. In creating man G-d manifested His inner “personality” in an outer image called the human being. While the essence of G-d remains beyond any manifestation, a dimension of Divine energy takes on the shape of a “supernal man” (“odom ha’elyon”) in whose “image” and “figure” each of us is created. As Ezekiel begins his prophetic vision: “upon the figure of the throne a figure in the shape of a human.”
Prior (conceptually, not in time) to existence, there was no “inside” and “outside.” Everything was within the all encompassing and all-pervasive Divine energy. What is today “outside” was then “inside.” The Great Tzimtzum turned the inside out and the outside in, creating a duality in which we have “outside” experiences that can seem divorced of their “inside” souls.
But with the creation of man, G-d revealed His inside in an outward manifestation. In effect, the human being is a walking revelation of the Divine.
Free will is of course our right to choose to reveal the inner Divine or to allow the outer packaging to dominate.
The Midrash in this week’s Torah portion discusses the face in some of its extreme contortions.
Moses challenges G-d, the Midrash relates, with the biggest question of all. “How can one be purified from the impurity of death?”
G-d did not respond.
“At that moment, Moses’ face turned yellow (pale).”
Only later, continues the Midrash, when they reached the section of the red heifer [this week’s Torah portion], did G-d say to Moses: “When I communicated to you the laws of ritual impurity, you asked Me, how can this person (touched by death) become pure, I did not respond. Now I will give you the answer.” And G-d proceeded with the mitzvah of purification from the impurity of death by mixing the ashes of a red heifer with fresh water and sprinkling it upon the contaminated human being.
What kind of answer is this? And if it’s an adequate answer why was G-d initially silent and not say it in the first place?
This passage in Midrash is actually an interpretation of the verse in Ecclesiastes, “Who is as the wise man? And who knows the interpretation of a thing? A man’s wisdom makes his face shine, and the intensity of his face is changed.”
In this verse King Solomon is describing the mystery of life and death, and the way humans deal with it. We can all feel wise when things are “going well.” The world in which we live is so structured that the surface obscures all that going on within. To the extent, that on the surface level we may feel that we are in control and know the “interpretation of a thing” or two.
Until… until something shakes our comfort zone, waking us up from our reverie. Then, suddenly, we realize that the deepest truth of all is the query: “Who [really] is as the wise man? And who knows the interpretation of a thing?”
This does not negate the wisdom that we may have. Indeed, “A man’s wisdom makes his face shine.” Yet, experiencing the pain of death – the disconnection of a soul departing its body, and leaving its family and friends to travel to another domain – teaches an even deeper wisdom, as “the intensity of his face is changed.”
Moses, the quintessential man of G-d, the collective soul that contains within itself the experience of all souls, personally undergoes this transformation.
Moses was wise. And his face showed it. He had to cover his face because the people could not look at its radiance.
But then Moses became even wiser. He learned that the greatest wisdom of all is silence. That quiet place was revealed to him only when he asked the question – the greatest question of all: What do we do with death?
We live our entire lives believing that our actions have meaning; that the prices we pay to live virtuously, and the sacrifices of our parents and grandparents, are all worth it because every good deed, every effort, lives on forever.
Death, however, challenges the entire premise of our significance. Death seems to declare that no one is indispensable. The very word death means “the end,” finality. You think the party will never end – boom! It ends whether you like it or not.
Moses was a great man, the greatest of them all. His greatness shined most – as all greatness does – not in “good times,” but in the bad. In the abysmal throes of Egypt, after the tragedy of the Golden Calf, in the darkest moments, Moses did not shrink away helpless. He looked the blackness in its face, and did whatever it took.
Now, Moses confronts the issue if death. He is not afraid to face it, but he also is wise enough to know that you need different tools (or no tools) to address the “dark side” of life. Moses does not confront death intellectually, academically; he takes it personally to heart and cries out: “What can possibly purify the impurity of death?!” How can one ever heal from it, how can it not shake the very core of our beliefs?
The first step in dealing with it is bravely asking the question and feeling the pain, as it showed in Moses’ face changing color. [In another place the Midrash just states “Moses’ face changed”].
The face. “The intensity of his face is changed.” The same face that glowed after Moses descended with the Tablets, now changed as he looked death in the eye.
Then G-d taught Moses the true answer: Silence. Nothing but silence can contain the intensity of the schism between life and death. It takes us back to the silence of the Tzimtzum itself. Before the tzimtzum, reality was “buzzing” with infinite light (ein sof) and all its delights. Suddenly, a silence descended: G-d withdrew the conscious awareness of Divine energy, to allow for our independence to emerge.
Imagine, as the analogy goes, the most brilliant master unceasingly expounding on the infinite reservoirs of all wisdom and knowledge, then suddenly he falls silent.
The stillness must be so deafening – louder than any sound we will ever hear. The energy expended in withholding the flow is infinitely more powerful than the energy invested in releasing the flow.
This silence replays itself in every death. And replayed itself before Moses in G-d not responding to his question about purity from death. The non-response was the greatest response of all.
Then, a while later, G-d continues and says, now that we have been silent together, after we stood in awe of the mystery, now we can talk. And they talk.
G-d shares with Moses the mystery of cycles. All cycles. The cycles of life and death; the cycles of life itself and even the cycles of death and beyond. Everything in existence – even silence and tzimtzum – is part of a cycle.
The secret of the cycle is that it is one continuum of energy. Every form of energy requires movement. Energy cannot be generated in a vacuum; it needs two opposite poles that cause tension and then resolution. Opposites attract.
Take the life force energy within our bodies. Our heartbeat is the result of two movements: Contraction and expansion. As is our breath: Inhaling and exhaling. Tension and then resolution, only to lead to a new cycle, and yet another.
This mystery is captured in the balance of mixing water and ashes (fire) in the mitzvah of the red heifer. Fire is the tension and water the resolution. Together they are the source of life itself.
You are alive when you have a healthy balance of angst and resolve. Yearning, reaching for something greater. Then integrating it. Too much tension (as in anxiety or worse) or too much resolution (as in animal bliss or worse!) results in hyperactivity or stagnation.
Yet, after all is said and done, the silence still remains. And it continues to permeate the conversation, as Moses makes abundantly clear in the continuing dialogue. After hearing G-d’s words about the red heifer and the water and ashes, Moses remains stunned: “Is this the way to achieve purity?” And G-d replies: “This is the supra-rational law; it is my decree and there is no existing creature who can comprehend this decree.”
All the discussions help us forge ahead, but they don’t turn us into G-d. They don’t, nor can they, intellectually enter into the “heart of darkness,” into the essential core of the tzimtzum. These places remain a Divine decree, impenetrable with conventional (or any) tools.
Quiet. Awe. Stillness. These are gifts.
The Midrash doesn’t tell us directly whether Moses’ face changed back to its original color, with its glowing radiance. But we can assume that it did (as one commentary states). But I would like to believe that even when it did, it never was the same.
Because yes, the greatest answer of all is the question itself.
I would love to understand if there is a hereafter of some sorts, how does an eye see in heaven how do we eat, what do we do for eternity, if I cant remember before I was born, and when I sleep there are periods of nothingness, then why asume there isnt just more nothingness like before I was born, or will this be counteracted with GOD made you forget,as far as I can see its just all speculation, I love GOD but people wrote what they think GOD said, in the end it is all just an act of faith I suppose, that you really beleive ages ago what a person wrote down was GOD inspired, its lovely to seek reassurance , but like Pascal I find the deafening silence of the dark space at night terrifying, GOD BLESS.
Sometimes the lack of clarity is where faith really begins, but ultimately with patience the clarity does come.
Patience, for me that is always the key.
I think we all want to know now, but in life cycles, what goes around really does come around if we have the patience to wait and see G-ds hand at work. Shabbat Shalom and blessings from the Holy Land.
we need to have trust in hashem, but when we see evil, death darkness,it is hard to continue to have emuna and pray every day that Hashem is good. since obvious miricals nes are not around i have a hard time to see goodess of hashem in the world. i would expect that He will protect me and with my regular eyes and body sometimes i do not see it or feel it. I wish and pray to do good things all the time, and then i will feel Hashems infinite light , but sometimes it is very diffcult in this world to say think and do good always , because of the tests that dark force is putting in front of us everyday.
I believe That God was silent because Resurrection from the dead was the mystery to be revealed with the Messiah. Moses told the children of Israel one like me Listen to him, but was not given anymore revelation of the Messiahs mission other than to listen to him, which was plenty!
Thank you for this wonderful insight. I enjoyed and am blessed by the way you presented this. It made me remember lessons I learned long ago as an apprentice carpenter. A lesson I learned without words, which was explained later. Be still and know that I am G-D says it in a nutshell, thank you for cracking the nut and sharing the meat of the nut.
Yes, we are made in the image of the divine, and we are asked not to carve it…..it would be most difficult to carve our light bodies..almost as though God were josting with us..the creative light from which we are all made and can be revealed is pure awe…it is not the ritual you undergo it is the discipline of the ritual which brings you closer to the creative spark…to coddify this with death is a mistake, as there is no such thing as death. When the light body exits the food wrap, it is in its puriest form the ritual over the body is just that, the consciousness has already moved beyond to its fathers mansion for peace and rest. It may choose to stay in the light and transparent state or reincarnate to uplift humanity or as a result of desires..The red heifer is simply a symbol of direction, entering the tzazum is simply entering the creative space of great peace and all possability..like the space between notes, or the gap between mountains, silence is the creation brewing its formation. After the unconscious and superconscious levels of mind have been purified by prayer and mantra and good comapany we reach the basemment of mind whcih connects with the almighty..it is here that revelation takes place and what needs to be revelaed is given forth..that so called darkness is unity itself.. cheers to the red heifer who points the way. amen